my whole life, i was never bothered by this. in fact, i celebrated it. i always thought it was cool that i had all brothers. when i had roommates, i thought to myself, "this is fine. this is probably a glimpse of what life with a sister would have been like."
it never bothered me, not having a sister . . . until now.
i realized what it is that changed my mind, what made me wonder, and even made me long for something i will never have. it's my girls. they are sisters. they always will be. and that is something i know nothing about. i will always have a mother/daughter relationship with them individually, and a mother/daughters relationship with them together... but i will never know the relationship they have with each other.
i think i feel a little left out.
it has been so apparent lately that their bond is growing and a true friendship is developing. there are moments every day that i observe and hope to never forget. it's macy rushing outside to hug parker when she gets off the school bus. it's parker coaxing macy to try new foods. it's macy patiently listening to parker's directions while they play and going along with it. it's parker giving macy a horsey ride to their room and then doing a puppet show for her before they go to bed. it's the chatter and laughter i hear when they're supposed to be falling asleep.
i kind of want to go in there and join in the conversation.
but i don't. i let them have their moments. they are learning each other, growing together, and making their way in this world . . . as sisters.
and i, as their mother, can only watch and wonder. . .
11 comments:
i love this.
thanks for helping me be more grateful for coming from a family of ALL sisters.
i always wished for a brother.
but you are right, it is special to be a sister...
your girls are awesome and lucky to have you!
I always wonder if Lena will ever get a sister. I remember well bonding late night with my sister on the top bunk during thunder storms and the like. I also remember pulling each other's hair out and hating her guts for taking my clothes. So there's that.
She my best friend now.
Sisters are the best. But so are brothers?!
i love how you can express your feelings through words so powerfully. so powerfully, you have me crying now.
that picture is so sweet and says so much! sisters really are the best, i couldn't make it without mine. but i did always wish for a brother too . . . someone to be protective of you, to tease you, make you tough, but adore you at the same time. your brothers are totally that way.
your
writing
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beautiful.
What a great post.
Sniff, sniff! Warm fuzzies! I think I'll call my sister now...
i have only sisters, and i must say they are pretty special. but i imagine brothers bring something to the table that is entirely unique as well. your girls are so cute together.
I love reading your blog. And I even totally get what it is like to have sisters (four of them!), yet you still bring me to tears...
I so wanted a sister growing up. I thought roommies and friends were pretty darn close, but now I feel a little jealous when I see Phillip's two sisters being so...sisterly. Even though we consider each other sisters now, too, I just don't have the history and relationship with them that they have with each other. Brothers are great, but not the same!
what if i told you i didn't cry while reading this?
would you cast me out?
very sweet. but i didn't cry.
and i really liked being the only girl. i never had to share a thing.... until moving into the shanty.
I loved this post. Such a great family you have.
The picture reminded of my two girls, 14 months apart, best of friends. I feel so happy watching them playing, talking, holding hands.
i couldn't help but get a little teary eyed reading this because i felt like you were almost describing my 2 girls...it truly is a very sweet bond to witness...(and you know our girls are about the same age!)
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